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I love your description of what it is like for us to accomplish some tasks! LOL. Perfect. I tried to explain to my wife that i will be trying to study technical material and in the time i read one sentence , my mind flashes to an upcoming football game, a fight i had in 3rd grade, a present my grandma gave me 35 years ago, something mean I said to someone in 7th grade i wish I could take back and do i need gas in the car. Ok what did i just read??? If you don’t experience that how could anyone possibility take that serious? Yet if I am reading or listening to something football related I can recite it to you word for word a year later. Crazy
HEY!
We'll be crazy together then! LOL! I run through the gauntlet of things like that too! I do inpatient medical coding at home for a bunch of hospitals in FL, and it's a lot like that! I work so many extra hours because I don't feel I work (actually) during work hours. I keep a timer going when I'm working; when I'm coding it's going, but when I take a "break" I stop it. So I try to work until the timer has 8 hours on it, or so. It's not fair to my employer on one side, or my family on the other.
How crazy did I sound? I know it was pushing the scales a little. LOL! Something I've read, and noticed with myself, is that ADHD doesn't adhere to the normal time of other people. Just like you said about thinking about something from 7th grade you wish you hadn't said, it probably feels just as raw now as it did then (but hopefully with some better understanding and maturity LOL). If you're a Trek geek (like me) HA! I laugh and say we aren't ruled by the Time-Space Continuum. hahaha... It sucks though sometimes, because I don't heal from things. For example my grandaddy passed away 19 years ago, and I'll still pick up the phone to call him, or my dad passed away 2 years ago and I try to call him too. Then, it's like it happened all over again, and hits me like a round-house to the chest when I remember...I can't call them. :( I'll be talking to my mom and get into a disagreement about something with her (happens A LOT, we're NOTHING alike) and I'll say, "put Dad on the phone, he'll tell you." She thinks I'm doing it to be mean to her, but she doesn't understand that I truly "forget".
Anyway, I get it! And am happy that others do to! This is like AA for ADHD'ers. Ha!
Thanks! :)
I just read that description of yours to my wife and we were laughing. I told her it was a perfect way to describe what we go through. I absolutely go through that with lost loved ones in the mourning of them like they just passed as well. I told her i found a home on my new crazy site! Lol
Good Deal! :)
I'm fairly new to the whole blogging thing... The first, and only (except my responses to this one), blog I've ever done is this one. I didn't know what to expect, and certainly didn't expect so many people to respond!! It's really warmed my heart and made me not feel so alone. :)
Have you ever heard of Borderline Personality Disorder? I had to see a Psychologost, refered by my doc because I needed recert and we were wanting to up my meds. I have a regular Christian Therapist I see about once a month, but for the meds I needed to see a Psychologist/Psychiatrist. I went through a whole slew of tests, pretty interesting, and kinda crazy. HA! Anyway, he diagnosed me with BPD as well as ADHD. It's all very new, so I don't know that much about it, except that in most cases it develops because of long-term, untreated PTSD.
Anyway, just wondering if you'd heard of it or have any insight. I feel like I'm collecting the whole alphabet in initials! LOL!
My hubby and 2 boys are the most amazing parts of my life, but I can't exactly use my 5 yr old as a sounding board, and my hubby is the polar opposite of ADHD. I know it's the only way we could ever make it, if he were like me I don't think we would've survived the first month of dating! LOL! He's my rock, my constant, my steady ground and I couldn't do it without him. It's hard, though, because he doesn't understand why I do many things I do. Heck, I don't understand why I do a lot of the things I do! Ha! He tries to by reading and all, but it's not the same. I know I frustrate the dayligthts outta him, and often wonder why in the world he ever fell in love with me in the first place! :) I am not going to question my great fortune though. Ha!
Tell your wife hello for me and that my husband is going through it to! LOL! So she's not alone either! :)
Thanks! :)
That is exactly how my wife is. 2 ADHDers together would be a funny farm! The beauty is she is super conservative and I am fearless but we compliment eachother very well. I have heard of BPD. As a matter of fact an NFL player Brandon Marshall from the Chicago Bears has it and is a spokes person for it. I think I might benefit from a true examination. The ADHD was easy to diagnose. The moment I read the symptoms and realized I had all of them it was pretty clear. but I never even looked into any other issues. Google Brandon Marshall and BPD it is a great story.
I WILL!!! THANK YOU!!!
You’re not alone. Even though we feel like it most days. Wish I could offer you some advice but I’m in the same boat as you.
First off, welcome! This is your first time posting here!
That’s very interesting that you had such a reaction to taking MDMA. I do need to point out that at this point in time, while this is being tested as a possible treatment for PTSD, it is not currently approved for use. And of course, what is available out in the community is not guaranteed to be pure, nor is the dose size reliable.
Just a heads up.
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